Saturday, November 27, 2010

Unless You Know Another You.

Your throat. Or is it your heart, where your words form? Maybe your bones, even. Mostly not the liver though. Are we making excuses for our insecurities? Are we being trapped into the realm of society and it's expectations? Maybe so, but you can't let it control your life.

Love is a deep emotion, deeper than wrinkles, deeper than valleys, deeper than the bottom of the ocean. If it weren't for real love, life would not be possible. And in life, we find those few people, who even at times may not seem the best, are the ones to keep around. 


New friends. They're like, well, they're like drugs. Ya, maybe not the best wordage. So in honor of new Friends, Conner this is for you.

I've known you for a while. I remember the days I would convince my boyfriend to bring James up to see you. I remember the trip to the mall, and the movies we went to but didn't watch. Conner, I was impressed with you. With the life you lead and how much spirit and ambition you held. I know you still have all of that too. I love that when you write, it's for you. I can tell. You're so artistic, creative, unruly, the opposite of careful. I need more of that in my life. I admire the way you dress. Not a specific thing everyday. You dress you reflect your thoughts and emotions. I wish I could be that involved with myself to surprise myself everyday. You're just simply gorgeous. In an "I don't give a fuu" way. Conner. You hold the world, and you don't even know. You try, even when it's not needed. And at times where you know you won't win. But you try, and that's passion girl. It has been said at times that people have hearts that are too big for their chests. This is you. Not always. You have another trait that I hold high. You bare your emotions. You let it out. You let them known. I have always had a hard time telling people what I really mean to say. I want to be stronger in that some day. I miss the days that were easy, I know we all do.
Even though you push, you need someone around. And to that, I'll be here. I know that you're a good friend, just by the way you are to the people you love.
There will come a time Conner, that life will never go your way. In this, keep your head high. And don't give in or give up. You will make the most out of life, you will. To boot, you're a great sister, and just by the way you are with your moms, a great daughter. You're intelligent, funny, charismatic. You've got everything anyone should be jealous of. Love the life you've been handed, walk tall, smile always.


 But always be you.

2 comments:

  1. this seriously has rendered me speechless, I don't even know how to respond. I am so so thankful for this and for you for somehow knowing exactly who I very well may be in just a short amount of time. I really truly admire you and though we're not as close as we obviously should be, I know that'll change in a short amount of time.

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